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Name: Patricia
Interests: Running around parks, schools, and neighborhoods, especially at night. Writing. Getting to know certain people better ... kori, natalie, aly, thao, zach, diana, alex, robert, matt, brea, etc. Making good plans. Music and movies that were, are, or will become my favorites and all the other ones in between. Also knitting and reading and hoping.
Expertise: boredom
Industry: Media
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MSN: speedy_turtle
Member Since:
9/9/2005
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| and if my brain quits well I guess then that's just it. I don't understand relationships. I've wanted to be in one for probably a decade now, at any cost, and now this opportunity seems too expensive, so to speak. I can't justify the expense of trying to "date" a 26 year old that I don't really know, for no other reason than because I haven't found anyone my own age here to date. and it would be more acceptable to me if I was actually attracted to him, but that's not the case, unfortunately. this sucks. everytime I have any romantic interactions .. they're always wrong, incorrect, false, fake. whatever. and who the fuck wrote my statistics textbook anyway? they ought to be shot and their children forced to re-write their grey, dense, incomprehensible waste of paper. fuckers. weekends should all be 4 days long. I believe that in my heart and soul. but that's not going to make it happen. never has, never will. | | |
| ace of cakes on dvd pride and prejudice and zombies milk anthropologie hoodie THERE IS NOTHING TO DO IN DALLAS. GET ME OUT OF HERE NOW. NOW NOWNOWNOWNOWNOW. NOUN. movies, concerts, nothing is even happening until the middle of june. there are no movies i want to see except for i love you man at the dollar theatre and i would have to go by myself. my friends don't want to do anything and I don't particularly want to do anything with them. my mom is in florida. i don't have any prospects for a job. I am out of my anti-depressants and it will probably take days for my psychiatrist to get back to me and refill the prescription. i have read more books than I have all year in the past 2 weeks. I could take a shower. that would take up 20 minutes ... and then what? the only channel I have is the discovery channel and all they are showing is deadliest catch. i don't have any movies I want to rent. kerry hasn't gotten back to me with her netflix account so I can't watch anything online yet. I don't know how to get into the pool and it's green and it's kind of raining outside so it probably wouldn't even be a good idea to swim. I don't have enough money to go shopping with. nothing that I need to be making and nothing to make anything with either. talking to my friends from mac just makes me miss them more. facebook is boring. there's nothing else worthwhile to do on the internet. i can't remember the last time I was this bored. kill me now. | | |
| quote of the day, perhaps of my life: "I was addicted to saying things and having them matter to someone." from Waitress ... my new favorite movie of the moment. umm, so I'm home now after having survived the first semester of college in one of the coldest places in the country. I slept until 1 PM today and then took an hour nap later in the day at 5. I only left the house once to go rent movies at the big Walmart on spring creek. god, it's so weird being home ..... I can't even handle it and I miss my friends a lot. it's just really strange being here again after so long and after wanting to be gone so much. I don't know how to feel. I just wish I had a boyfriend. more than I wish to do well in school or to have friends. I just want to be in a relationship and I can't understand why it's so difficult to get into one. AGGHHHHH ... I'm gonna go watch wall-e and continue my cute, movie-watching, resting/recovery extravaganza. | | |
| I feel very very behind on many things in my life. like, sleep for one. keeping in touch with my friends from home, personal hygiene, friendships outside my little group of 5, exercizing, tv watching, reading, watching movies, news about the outside world, it's nice that's photography, calling people like my grandmother and american airlines. I'm also never going to get a boyfriend. okay. that's fine, I guess. some people don't. it's just natural selection I suppose. my first semester of college is over now. I feel like I've grown in a lot of ways and gotten worse in a bunch of other ways. I can't even begin to reflect on it. things are different and things are the same. can't handle this stuff. don't know how my life is going to turn out. wish I did. | | |
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